Searching for a title is exactly what it means. Talking about family is hard. Talking about this journey of where I am now to when I first moved to the bay area is challenging. I am searching for the “who am I”. I have been challenging myself to think beyond the construct of what makes a family, a family. To why I am so scared to be me. I am in search of something - potentially lost at times. From looking at two family dynamics in which one where I feel tense to be myself, and the other where I feel so liberated to be me. The challenge and the triumph. Torn between two worlds, scared to show the real me. This body of work is arduous in the sense that I still don't feel complete. Searching for the wants rather than the needs.